Update

Here I am in the hospital on the 4th day and am still under observation. I don't know how long I am staying here for but a nurse told me that a patient with similar problem stayed 2 weeks. I am not in pain and am not taking any drugs. But the fluid in my body has caused much discomfort in that I can't move much as my movement causes shortness of breath. My weight has gone up from 47kg to 52 kg and I look no different from a 4 or 5 months pregnant woman. My blood is getting thicker and I am also in danger of getting blood clot. That's why they have to keep me here. No real 'treatment' is being carried out as I was told that the fluid in my body is not 'serious' enough to be drained.

In the meantime I was told that this problem is not likely to go away. While my tummy is so bloated that any food or drink would cause discomfort, it's the least concern to my doctor. They are concerned however about the fluid in my lung which is about 2 litres. I can no longer lie flat and sleep any more as that gives me huge difficulties in breathing. Last night I had to ask the nurse to give me oxygen so I could sleep.

The whole plan of Christmas and New Year is changed. Instead of going to Hawke's Bay to spend Christmas with hubby's family and have New Year at the beach, I am going to be a resident in the hospital for a while.

Noticing I got so bored in the hospital hubby came in this morning with my laptop. Unfortunately the hospital has a passway which we don't know how to access. I found an Internet in the postshop of the hospital but I suspect I am going to be using it much.

I know, it doesn't sound pleasant. But life is about going with the flow and accepting whatever happens. In my ward there are a few women who had cancer and one even had one breast taken out. By contrast my problem seems insignificant and less dramatic. So I try not to be too upset. I am staying in the best hospital in the country and I am in good hands, I am a lucky girl.

My ward is on the 9th floor and interestly enough the only building with a big enough sign that's readible says on the top of the building PEACE. I always believe that nothing happens by chance. Perhaps this sign is just there to remind me that at any time in any place one should always remember that peace is the only way to cope with this world and all our problems.

Despite all the problems I am going through, a nice surprise came to me - I am pregnant! And to a large extent it is the cause of the whole drama. So what have I got to complain? All the suffering will be worth it I hope!

My 30 minutes are running out. I've got to go. Thanks to all of you who have left such kind words in your reply to my prevous post. You have no idea how much I appreciated them. I miss you all and may peace be with you!

Merry Christmas!